怎么回答？Speechless

今天乘搭巴士时，司机突然将巴士停在路旁，他说脚抽筋要伸展一下大腿 。 随着，便问起包括我在内的三名乘客：“你们觉得英国的天气如何？还习惯这种季风吗？”英国人就是喜欢谈天气。

一位看起来像华裔的少女以极浓厚的英国英语搭腔: “我在这里长大，习惯了这种天气。”

巴士司机继说：“噢，我到过很多有季候风的地方，香港、新加坡、马来西亚... ...”听到他说马来西亚，我答说：“是吗？我来自大马，你在那里呆过多久？”

“我以前在那里打共产党，你知道共产党吗？你们的国家独立后，我们还在那里呆到1968年。”

“你们那时不应该再回去。”

“我们是‘协助’（他用手指在空中划了开关影号）马来西亚对付共产党，呵呵... ... 我们在柔佛海峡中央的一个岛屿驻军...”

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我想起去年的圣诞节，我到一户英国人家里做客，那里也有一位英国空军，同样地，他也告诉我，他曾经是专门修理战机的军人，他修的飞机打过很多共产党员... 还获颁过勋章等等。

“其实，我现在回想起来， 日军投降后，我们不该再回去... ... ”

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当这两位前英国军人告诉我他们占领过马来西亚、与抗日反殖民的马共打过杖... ... 其实，我都无言以对，啼笑皆非。

这种情节，令人感觉很怪。像不像凶手搭着受害人的亲友的肩膀说：“嘿！是我拿刀在他身上捅了五刀！”

原来，殖民的历史在那一代人的脑海里还是记忆犹新。我国离开那段历史还没超过50年呢！但恐怕“殖民”还没有成为历史，只是那种占领土地、掠夺资源的形式已经改变。

The bus driver stopped his bus by the road this afternoon suddenly. He told us that his leg is tired and need to rest for a few minutes.

There were only 3 passengers on the bus. Then he began to talk, “How did you find the weather here? Now is monsoon.” British like to talk about weather.

A Chinese-looked young lady replied him, “I grown up here, already get used to it. ”

The bus driver continued. “oh, I have been to many places that have monsoon, HongKong, Singapore, Malaysia…” I said, “really? I am from Malaysia, how long have you spent there? ”“I fought with communists there, do you know communist? After independence, we stayed there until 1968 … ”

“Oh? Perhaps you should not go back at that time. ”

“Well, we were ‘helping’ Malaysia that time… We based in an island between Johore Straits...My favourite fruit is rambutan! ”

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This reminds me of a conversation during last Christmas. I went to visit a British family. A former army who served in air force was invited. He was in charge of the maintenance of aircrafts. He had never fought with communists, but those aircrafts he repaired did. He was based in Singapore.

“Actually, now I feel we should not have gone back after Japan surrendered…”

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When these two gentlemen told me about their experience in fighting with communists, which have fought back Japanese during second World War , and anti-colonialism bravely with their lives, I was unable to find suitable words or sentence to reply, I can only remain speechless.

I feel odd. Just like what is always seen in the movie, the murderer appears friendly in front of the family of the victim, and said : “Yeah, I killed him with five stabs.”

The memory of colony remained fresh for those who experienced it. It was just ended half century ago for a country like Malaysia. However, it seems like at the same time, another mode of “colonialism” is invisible and appalling.

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